I Think I Can, I Think I Can....

I think I can blog this time. I mean, without loosing my umph after only a few posts and then dropping off the map for a year or so. I think I can do a little each day to record what's going on in my life and in Emma's life, because I have a much greater spirit of optimism than I have had all year. Basically 2011 has really sucked the big muddahuckie. I feel like I have been chewed up and spit out since January 3rd when life changed dramatically around here. But I have been picking up the pieces of my life and putting them back together in a new form and fashion, crafting a daily experience that is much happier and healthier than Emma and I have known for quite a while. It's hard being a single mom and working twelve-hour night shifts, but I am grateful for a wonderful sitter who is like a big sister to Emma and some very good friends who have made it possible for me to go to work with the peaceful assurance that my daughter is being well cared for in my absence. I am finding my inner strength, becoming physically and emotionally healthier, growing spiritually, healing, and forgiving. After a decade of being off-kilter and in an almost constant state of stress and turmoil, I am learning to unwind and stand tall and steady. Of course I still have my moments...